Story of Jared J. Kimble's Enbrightenment
Jared painted autumn 2007.
This is part of a testimonial story of Jared J. Kimble's Spiritual Realization (Enbrightenment). It starts in his childhood and progresses up to September 15th of 2011. There may be some controversial statements in here, and some of these things may appear to contradict your religion, and more specifically the religions of Christianity (anyone that is a Disciple of Jesus Christ) and Adidam, but 'unfiltered is unfiltered' as he said when asked about it. It is written from his ecstatic autobiographical perspective.
This is my (Mukti Da's) story of Heart Realization. The story starts in my childhood and progresses up to September 15th of 2011. There may be some controversial statements in here, and some of these things may appear to contradict your religion. These words you are about to read are my Confession and Testament of my Process of Divine Realization of the Self-evident, Self-obvious, Self-existing, Self-revealing Reality of Existence ItSelf. There is No doubt regarding this (The Only) Realization of God ItSelf for me.
As far back as I can remember Heart~Fire was with me. As a child the Divine Light would pierce the top of my head, it would feel like a needle point slowly entering my head. It would make my body feel really small, then over time I began to allow it to enter freely, without any resistance. Before the age of two I was sneaking out of the house, and this lead to me sitting in the back of a cop car (a friend of the family) by the time I was four or five to scare me into not sneaking out anymore. I would go around to the neighbor’s gardens and pick flowers to bring home; the funniest thing about this was that I was naked. The neighbors would call my mom and ask her to come get her naked child out of their garden, who was picking all the best flowers. I was a bit of a hard child to 'control' and get to listen and behave. I felt Free, always responding to my Heart, even though I was not aware of the dangers and risks I was taking by sneaking out and picking flowers. Looking back, it must have been heart-wrenching waking up and seeing your baby gone.
Growing up with Heart~Fire in the center of my chest revealed that in my experiences with other people, it seemed that they were not aware of it or relating to each other through this boundless Heart I was aware of subtly. People were not aware of the Heart~Fire like I was. I accepted this around five years old, and the Heart~Fire became an ambience and not really so intense all the time for me. I began to live and act like everyone else, it almost seemed as if there was something wrong with me, and so I let my attention circle around the ego contraction and related to others like everyone else.
At the age of seven after hurricane Elena hit my home town, I temporarily lived at my Grandfather’s house in the country because of damage to my house. During one of the mornings as I was waiting for the bus at the end of the drive-way, alone (my sisters went back in for a moment), a lite rain, just up the road, was headed towards my location. I can remember this clearly; the clouds and rain were moving slowly towards my Grandfather’s. He had ten acres, with all sorts of yard animals in the back, and a long rocky drive-way with a black mailbox that sat under a pine tree near the street, which is where I was standing. I could clearly notice the line of rain (like a wall of rain) and its slow approach. Just before the rain made it to me a Light shined down from the sky around me, and made a circle around me briefly (like a cylinder); it was nothing like lightening.
This light gave me sign, and that sign was to spread Heart~Fire in all people. From that point on my life was subtly geared to helping others realize the Heart~Fire, although I did not know how this would happen. I just decided to be me and the right time would come. The intensity of the Heart~Fire was not steady or present all the time, but it was there as something I could intensify at any moment by turning my attention to the feeling. As a teenager I would tell my friends that I could get high without drugs. We would lay on the piers on Ocean Springs beach, on the Mississippi Sound, and I would meditate on the feeling of the Heart~Fire, and It would shine hard from the center of my chest. My friends never got it, never understood, and always believed I was crazy.
In high school I began to look at religions other than Christianity. I did not get the fulfillment of the Heart~Fire from the local preachers, and churches. My experience was that the Heart~Fire was not important, and that Heart~Fire was secondary to many things that garnered more intense attention (like not going to hell); there was no Real attraction of Heart~Fire in the preachers I meet. If someone would have been there early in my life, and that person would have taught me about Real Heart Communion, I would have been bodily (very possibly Resurrected) Realized before I turned eleven.
Pretty much everyone I knew was Christian, or at least a passive Christian. It was not enough for me, the preaching lacked what my Heart longer for, and I began to feel attracted to Buddhism and Hinduism, just from a few brief things I had heard about those traditions in history class. I read some on Buddhism at the high school library and felt a strong connection to the tradition. I shared this with my friends, and I told them I was 'atheist', at least in the relation to the god they talked about. Buddhism explained ‘Reality’ in a way that I had not heard before. It was definitely different from what I was being taught in Christianity.
I said Buddhism has it right about God (that God was the transcendent Light of Reality and emptiness of personal self), and they ridiculed me enough that I stopped studying. I was never threatened by the idea of eternal hell, and that was a popular theme for conversion where I grew up. But, it was more important to me to keep my friends than to explore a new religion.
My Grandfather was Catholic his whole life, and his prayer life, devotion and Faith in Jesus Christ did not reflect this kind of language. His spiritual life began to get my attention after graduating high school 1996. I felt Jesus could teach me all I needed to know, and settled for being bound to that outlook for a time (at least passively).
College was empty to me. There was nothing there that got my attention. No Self Realization being taught there, which would have got my attention. However, in a psychology class I do remember learning about some of the Yogis, Meditation, and the idea of ego and self. That got my attention, but not enough for me to dive into a Real path of Realization. Spirituality took a back seat to just learning what it was that was Really important for me in life. And that was not much, I was more interested in street knowledge and things along those lines.
I was introduced to surfing by a new friend around 19 years old, and that got my attention more than anything else. I eventually stopped going to college, and even walked out of an English class cussing because I got a 'C' on a paper. I was done with college at that point. Surfing took me from the busy life of trying to become someone or achieve something, to just being happy with the current wave, or the next one. I felt the pressures of society and the attention people had on making money, and the pressure to become someone or achieve some kind of grandiose idea of the American dream was not that interesting, albeit that was exactly the kind of life I was living at the time. It did not offer anything that really touched my heart, it all felt empty. I moved to Florida for a few months (lived with my sister) then moved back to the coast of Mississippi. Surfing taught me to be happy with what was happening in life. I became a little freer, and then turned my attention towards drugs, music (rapping) and women.
Something had to change in my life, an element of growth, some kind of maturity (the party life was a giant stalling of life for some temporary ego based enjoyment – and I knew this even then), and I knew it was time for that, but I just did not know how it would happen. I got into some trouble in late December 1998, and this provided me with the kind of dramatic shift needed, a time for a choice. In early 1999 I had a revelation that showed me a lot about the current condition of the Earth and the people of it. I was wanting to help the world again, like I did in my childhood, and that night was the first great tipping point in my path of Realization. This is what I am willing to talk about with this particular highly personal experience.
I picked up all sorts of books; tons about science, relativity, quantum theory, and so on. In those quantum theory books the ideas of universal consciousness began to stand out to me, and so my attention migrated from physics to Self understanding. But, while this was beginning to seed in me, I met a girl later that year and three months later she was pregnant. I went through the whole process believing it was time for me, and that this was my turning point in life. With new responsibilities, and a Strong drive to learn about the cosmos, life and my Self, my attention turned towards the religions of the world. My son Mordechai was born in 2000, and I was going through a lot mentally and did not handle this part of my life well. But, I took it in stride and learned much and grew up quickly because things were not just about me anymore.
I took a break from Christianity and studied what I wanted. No one’s opinion matter to me, I understood that God was fully capable of revealing ItSelf to me, and my Heart was safe through that Faith. In my home town and surrounding area the evangelical preachers seemed to get the most attention from my friends and thus me. They had a message about Jesus Christ, and that He was about to show up and all of the 'end times' prophecies would come true. That ministry always translated to being ready right now (at least for me), and thus, being satisfied in God right now. So 'being ready right now' is what I learned from their message. The end of the world stuff was just unattractive (but I was intrigued by it and thus it did have a grip on me for a time).
Going to a Christian church that preached the idea of being ready right now did not appear to change the people of the congregation. These churches are really just filled with fearful people tucking their heads between their legs, kissing the world goodbye, and never really growing spiritually. I had been to pretty much every major kind of Christian church by this point, and it was time to re-learn all the dogma and beliefs from Christianity; something to be Learned strictly from the Heart~Fire Presence. Thus, I started fresh in many ways and did not just accept what I heard and read.
I was not Only reading Christian spirituality, but I was returning to read on Buddhism, Hinduism, and some of the great Nondual traditions from our history. The moment I first saw an image of the esoteric anatomy in a Buddhist book, the chakras and currents, was the moment it all made sense. In one glance, I was simply aware of everything in the image. It was simple, and I knew this structure was how I sensed Heart~Fire, which has always been with me. It made sense then that all these experiences were associated with it (the esoteric anatomy of consciousness). For me, I did not understand why Self Realization was so hard, or dark. It was there, the whole time, in the background my whole life, and that was now clear to me. This anatomy was responsible for these strange currents, pressures, fiery-bliss, and the light above my head. Growing up I did not have someone tell me what that conscious activity was all about, or show me images of the esoteric anatomy.
The next tipping point came after this, it was in early 2001, and after I moved back home from my failed (American dream) relationship. This tipping point (also) happened in my bed room at my parents house, Same room as the first tipping point. After doing something random outside, probably gardening, I came inside and went to my room (briefly). My mom called me into the kitchen, as I began to walk out the bedroom; I stopped and lay down on my bed. I closed my eyes and began to briefly watch something. The something was ‘me’ (objectively) entering a doorway, in the midst of darkness. I kept walking in, and appearing outside again. I decided to See what was on the other side. So, my point of view moved from watching myself to the one opening the door.
I struggled with it for a second, and then (forcefully) pulled it open. I went inside. At that moment there was Only Divine Light, my face turned to all sorts of colors, and disappeared into the Brightness. In that short experience, probably less than a minute, my body/mind noticed, acknowledged and identified as the transcendent light of consciousness. In a way one could say this was the moment that I truly entered stage one of what was to become Enbrightenment. I had learned to Transcend the body/mind as my point of view of consciousness.
I immediately got up and went on with my life. Like nothing happened. I never mentioned it to anyone, well maybe one or two people, but they were oblivious to what that meant to me. The experience did one thing; it told me who I was/Am Eternally. I Realized my Everlasting Self right then, without a doubt, or wondering, or ‘what-ifing’. That started the next process, which involved the conscious Transcending of all points of view.
I then studied all the secret stuff (teachings) I could find. I read and researched All the secret yoga, and experiences of mediation I could find. I began to meditate, and sit by myself in my room. This is the period that I consider my formal time of spiritual practice. My spiritual life had a new force of Self Realization, and I just knew that this was not the whole revelation. That did not mean I was waiting to Realize another Self, or that I felt Realization had more of ItSelf to show me. Realization was clear As IT Always Is, and the great Nondual scriptures I studied became easier and easier to understand.
Realization seemed too easy, there had to be more regarding of how the body/mind lives through Realization ItSelf As ItSelf. It seemed strange to me to be reading about all the enlightened teachers, and their experience was always freely my living experience. My process took on a clear path. I would read about some spiritual experience, and would either have it right then, or when I was meditating.
Looking back it appeared that there was a cosmic guidance, and as I picked up new books the depth of the read grew, and so did my progress. With each new book came new experiences of the Spiritual Cross (esoteric anatomy). I would sit, and without much effort, go out the forehead, or feel the intensity of the Bright conscious diamond that appears in the darkness of mind. In this part of my process It was objective Light to the body/mind, and my body/mind - wholly and completely - was not Perpetually Identifying As that Bright Shining, although my Divine Self was Already Realized at this point. These experiences moved from my meditations to ordinary life.
During this time I truly discovered Faith. My grandfather had Perfect Faith, and he would pray daily the rosary, and he always experienced Heart~Fire during that meditation. I noticed this at this point in my path. So, I turned back to Christ to Test his (Christ’s) Realization. I dropped all attachment to All spiritual traditions. I once again began to read the New Testament as if I had never heard one preacher. On July 22nd 2001 (exactly a year before my Resurrection) I was Baptized at a local Evangelical Church. This came about through my own volition and Heart urge to surrender unto Christ fully and completely. I viewed Christ, at this time, As my (primary) Guru in whom I was experiencing a type of Heart Communion. I continued to study all that I could find on Realization and Enlightenment.
This is the third tipping point of my spiritual Awakening, and this one took place late in the summer of 2001 after my Baptism at the Church. I walked out of a friend’s house, and this particular friend was Evangelical Christian and member of the Church where I was Baptized. He (among other friends) always pressured me to stop reading and practicing what I was doing, and we would get into discussions, and consider different ideas, but it always came back to Bible thumping (it was the morning of one of those nights).
In the morning around 7am. I looked at the sun as I walked down my buddy's driveway, and said to myself that this was the moment to Live Perfect Faith in the Self-evident, Self-revealing, Self-obvious, Self-existing Reality of Existence ItSelf. Living via the Transcendental Life of Consciousness seemed to be gaining (progressively) Grace over my body’s residual egoic consciousness. I sacrificed all possible ideas of having my own free will, and dropped attachment to all possible 'points of view' that could possibly have a (free) will, and Submitted to God’s Free Will (Only) in my life In ALL moments (this is the point I Truly Lived in God’s Will, and confronted the tendency of the fear of not living that daily). I entered a fast for three days, and spent that time at home in meditation.
My perfect Faith (in God’s Divine Will, which I Knew to be Transcendent of all conditional forms of reality) was demonstrated by the Tangible Awakening of the left-heart, and this immediately happened as I looked at the sun when I walked down my buddy's driveway. I was already aware of the center-heart, and now the left-heart was always awake and tangible.
I did not read any writings from anyone that mentioned the left-heart before this awakening. It just spontaneously Awakened, and I was clearly (and constantly – perpetually) aware of its structural presence from then on. The Awakening of the left-heart was to be Directly Associated with my deepening Faith in Christ and my perfect (whole bodily) submission to God’s Divine Will (moment to moment). I finished my fast (which was dedicated to my Guru Jesus Christ), and I was on Fire in a major way. At this point in my Enbrightening Process the left-heart (and center-heart) demonstrated a steady-state of presence freely (what I really mean is that the Intensity was growing exponentially).
I was intrigued that there may be a right-heart yet to Awaken in me. Later in the year, after autumn began, during the times that I went to sleep became filled with the most Intense experiences up to this point in my process. I did not associate with people much during this part of my process, and when I hung out with friends, I maintained silence as much as possible.
My nights were filled with the consciousness of this body being draw into the Divine Light, and the Divine Light was like a giant sphere before me (with smaller Bright Lights surrounding It – and I would go into the one on the right side of the Light and then be completely absorbed As that Light), and it seduced and sucked me into It with love-bliss and heart~fire. Moreover, a separative self sacrifice into that Presence Always Revealed the One True Identity of Reality and God ItSelf. It was during this time that I was experiencing the descent, after ascending/going out the top of my head, back down into the right-heart via the Resurrection current (Amrita Nadi).
I was not whole bodily aware of the right-heart at this time, but some of the Divine Processes related to Awakening the right-heart were already happening. Every morning my body awoke with a deep shining, and strong heart~fire all over, from head to toe. Most of the anatomy was freely flowing at this time. I began to intuit the right-heart during the winter, but did nothing with the reoccurring interest.
The intensity was getting ‘out of hand’, and staying at home in private turned out to be how the last days of my process were spent. I would sometimes give into my friends call to come and hangout, but not often because the Heart~Fire was so intense and I was not really that good of a conversation due to my urge to be quiet and Watch and Observe mySelf. My formal meditation was a solid day to day, moment to moment experience of Heart~Fire, both the left and center hearts, the kundalini, all the chakras from the bottom of the spine to above the head. There was no longer any effort to do this or that in meditation, and the urges to experience this or that spiritual vision or samadhi (deep meditative absorption into the Divine Light wherein the body/mind is forgotten by various means of turning one's attention). I created my own prayers and meditations, whatever my Heart wanted I learned to Give It.
At this point (around early summer of 2002) it did not require Any attention or effort from ‘me’ for the Presence of Realization ItSelf, to be Consciously and Tangibly Realized Already and Inherently As mySelf. Nothing I read was any more interesting then what was happening with me daily (moment to moment), even during experiences of walking into stores, and anything ordinary you can imagine, and unto this day it always seems strange that people do not literally see me (or theirSelf) Shining constantly.
I began to think the esoteric anatomy should form a cross of sorts (again the intuition from that winter began to really grab my attention with a greater force during this time), which meant there should be a necessary existence of a right-heart to complete the structure of a cross. I felt there must be a right-heart. So, one day I began to search on line using those search terms at a local library. I did not have internet during that time. The first person that came up was Avatar Adi Da. As soon as I saw His face, my Heart told me to look deeper. I read some more from His website and immediately just Felt a (whole bodily) Communion with Him (Heart Communion). I stood up from the computer after reading some of His writings, went into the used book section, and looked around (just seemed like I should do this). Sitting on the table below another spiritual book, not sure what it was, lay “The Knee of Listening” by Adi Da Samaraj for one dollar. Pretty interesting coincidence and the moment felt auspicious.
This was mid July of 2002. I began to read, and was already receiving his transmission strongly, freely and with a growing, seemingly moment to moment, intensity. The moment I seen His Face on the library computer, I Knew. So, I began to read “The Knee of Listening”, and as I got to the part where he described the awakening of the right-heart, I began to intuit the right-heart strongly. It was not Strongly Present (steady), but I was prepared, and Knew there was something about to Dawn. The presence of ego within this body/mind at this time was not noticeable, and it seemed an easy notion to consciously transcend any experience of death (or any experience at all without effort) because the Light of Consciousness was always visible to me. Therefore, so was my True Self that Never is born nor does it Ever die. Death could not create fear in me, nor could it force the egoic contraction upon any conscious experience of mine at this point. It was like I was waiting for some kind of final something that would leave my whole anatomy to Freely respond to God’s Divine Will/Consciousness Only, and I knew that there was a Steady-State that was beyond all these temporary, yet Very Intense, experiences of the Spiritual Cross. But, nothing in my past reading, or meditations had lead me to Notice the right-heart, and/or anything associated with it, at least in my daily ordinary experiences (this does not say anything for my time ‘asleep’, and being unconscious of experiences of the right-heart without seeing an association to the body/mind or the rest of the Spiritual Cross’s structure).
This is the third tipping point, which also happened in my room on my bed. At the exact moment I read his ( Adi Da Samraj) words of the right-heart and the amrita nadi (is what Adi Da Samraj calls the ascending current from the right-heart, and what I term as the Resurrection Current) in the temple in September of 1970, I Realized them Tangibly Simultaneously (which happened July 22, 2002 between 12 and 1 am). That was It. The right-heart was Freely Awakened (and has NEVER stopped Shining with Infinite Power), and the Resurrection Current tore through my body, igniting my chest and neck with a Bright Plasma like Current that reflected perfectly in my Crown Star. As the Resurrection Current passed through my head the Most Intense Fire Eye appeared at the ‘head’ of the Resurrection Current and Opened As the True Seat of my bodily Conscious Seeing As I Perfectly Identified As That Transcendent Conscious Reality Perfectly. That Most Intense Fire Eye, which Sprang up and Ascended from the right-heart, Demonstrated the True Steady-State of the Transcendent, Unconditional and Everlasting Self Realization of Existence ItSelf (the Divine Unconditional Samadhi of Reality ItSelf). I had found my Guru, again, but As Adi Da Samraj!
This Is the Realization says that It Is God’s (Reality’s) Realization that Dawns and Lives As the individual, and the body/mind does not become Realized (as if some ‘thing’ within the body/mind realizes God and becomes eternal – a separate eternal identity other than God’s). Instead, the Realization (of the right-heart and Resurrection Current) means the body/mind has surrendered all of its conscious life/existence perfectly into the One Self/Identity of God (ultimate and final ego death appears Only through the right-heart). It Is God’s Realization that capitulates (takes the body/mind to Freely and Fully Live As every conscious experience moment to moment) the individual, and it is not as if the individual somehow Realizes God. The Realization of the right-heart demonstrates that the soul is not eternal (not one bodily form is), and that God’s Transcendent Brightness of Being/Identity Is the Only Eternal Reality. All that Realize Self, share the One and Only Realization of Existence ItSelf, which Is the Only Realization that has Ever Appeared within Reality. The Realization Demonstrates ItSelf to Be Eternally Transcendent of a bodily form, yet through the right-heart and the Resurrection the body/mind Is Awakened Consciously and Living That Reality Only (Perfectly). That is the Sole Source of my process, and the sole Source of my bodily transfiguration that has been described.
One of the things that became apparent a few months later was that it seemed that Avatar Adi Da had been there my whole life. But, looking back, the Unconditional Samadhi (Steady-State of Consciousness) of God has been there my whole life, and I have memories where that Presence was strong, and they are now clear what that Was. Even as a child there are memories of this Presence in the back ground of my living experience. Prior to reading Adi Da’s writings I was developing a seven stage process and tradition, and I intuited that there was something else that had to come about before I could reveal the seventh stage clearly. After reading about his seven stage process, that changed, and I stopped writing for a while.
With the new processes manifesting from the Resurrection Current reflecting out of the Crown Light came all the necessary transformations. After a few days the WHOLE Spiritual Cross began to Shine from the right-heart, from top to bottom, from left-heart to right-heart, and All of It was Always Freely Awake (Alive), Fully~Completely. The wholeness of this body was Shining from head to toe perpetually, and constantly. The subsequent processes of the Shining of the right-heart throughout of the Spiritual Cross began immediately after the Resurrection. Later in 2002 I went to study Kriya yoga in Colorado, and I stayed there for only a few months. I left on not so good of terms, and my communication is now cut off from the teacher, but not the Kriya yoga lineage. I returned in early 2003 with a fresh understanding of Kriya yoga, regardless of the teacher’s failures. Up until this point, I never practiced ‘yoga’, I simply allowed all conscious experiences to find their proper place in God’s Presence. Before my Resurrection my meditations were me sitting, with nothing to do, except maybe a memory from something I read, and the subsequent experience of the same thing, or even something else. I learned early in my formal time of meditation that Heart~Fire Was the Teaching, and the Commune-ication that Revealed All I needed to Know.
After these bodily Awakenings and Realizations of the Spiritual Cross I did not feel like I needed to be a Guru, which was something that had been stirring in me. My Spiritual life simply became Living As Me. I began to come out of my reclusion, started seeing my friends regularly, and felt like my body could handle the Giant-Mega-Ultra Intensity that was now a constant Reality. From that I began to practice the, by grace, natural dynamic of consciousness moving from the right-heart, and flooding the Whole Spiritual anatomy. The Process moved in a pattern that went down along the front of the body, and turning upwards at the base of the spine, and back into the Eye and above and Beyond. The natural flow of the Divine Current of God throughout the body/mind (and Spiritual Cross) Comes to Life after the Resurrection. I submitted to whatever Process was happening, Freely Shined from the right-heart, and simply Witnessed As the Spiritual Cross was transfigured by the right-heart.
In 2004, May 8th, another tipping point appeared, and it happened in in a buddy of mine's old house, which they no longer lived in, and it served as storage and a place Tommy and I could hang out, and watch TV and read. The Guru function opened up in me, which to meant that there was a noticeable transmission and interaction with other people, animals, and the environment. This transition did result in people coming to me to receive some kind of transmission of Heart~Fire, which is not something I ever looked for but that I was working on a cosmic level, within the local environment, and secretly (because they were not aware of Me) with people I meet or were friends with. I noticed that people would have ‘unexplained’ experiences around me or after seeing me, but they never associated the strange things with me, nor did I attempt to take some kind of credit or claim it was because of me. I never went out looking for devotees, and when people would come to me and ask questions or want me to show them some yoga, if it was not about Self Realization, I'm not interested. If you want to exercise you don't need Yoga for that. So, I would not teach them, and even though they may have noticed something about me, they did not relate to me as the Guru, at least not properly, and the questions and interest was usually about just being a better person or a passive interest in Yoga.
It was never my intention to go out and find people who will listen to me, or be ‘my’ devotees. I just lived, and worked here and there, it seemed as if I was part of the whole wheel, the whole rat-race, but I was/Am Divinely Realized, and that Is/was the difference. If someone actually recognized me I would have served that relationship, yet, it did not happen with anyone I had physically met.
I had already been writing again by this point, and with random Christian teachings I began to store up some possible chapters in a might be book. The exact time line here is a bit fuzzy for me, but sometime after May 8th an important tipping point in my ministry appeared. The day this happened is unclear, but the memory and ‘Vision’ are Unequivocally Clear. Jesus Christ Ascended on the White Horse from my right-heart, and he Ascended into my Crown Star and Revealed the ministry that would come through me. The whole Testament of Christ became Perfectly Clear, and that it was time for My Testament of Truth. My Heart wanted to create a New Spiritual tradition, a tradition that was integral, and one that showed that Jesus Christ Truly and Historically Gave us (the Earth) a True Testament of God Realization, and Revelation. That tradition turned out to be Enbrightenment, and Christ Enbrightenment.
In 2004 I published the first version of volume one of “The Resurrection Testament” sub-titled ‘Enbrightenment of Christ’. My Heart wanted to get this out there, but the message was not on time, and after publishing this book and starting volume two (Tower of Babblon – which I did not finish until December 2010) I eventually unpublished volume 1, and quickly stopped writing all together. My Heart wanted to ‘marinate’ on all of this, and to just let it be, and feel perfectly through God’s Grace until there was Absolute Clarity and a Perfect ability to articulate the Teachings clearly. I stuck to being a ‘regular’ guy, and Living the Realization amongst the people wherever I ended up. I feel like a monk, with no home to claim, and Only God to keep me. I Live Perfectly in God’s Will, and that can lead me anywhere at any time, whatever God’s Will Is in that moment.
I passed through the major sub-processes that appear after the Resurrection, and participated in the world in ordinary terms. Hurricane Katrina passed through my home town, and sent me to Florida to live with family. I lived and worked like everyone else, got my own place, and simply lived for a few years, joined a (metal) band and did vocals (this is how my art and poem was expressed from 2008 to 2013). In July of 2010 I began to feel the urge to return to my Testament. By early August I was heavy into editing and re-writing my first volume, with the intention of completing the second volume as soon as this one was completed. I pulled out my old writings, tried to keep the presentation as close to the original, and cleaned out the sketchy things that I felt would cause more questions than answers. It was time, and my Testament had reached the point in my life where it was Ripe for completing. My books are all self published on Lulu self publishing website. The first volume, Enbrightenment of Christ, was published somewhere in November, and the second volume, then known as 'Tower of babblon' was published on the eclipse of December 2010. There was more books to come (although after finishing volume two there was no expectation to write a third volume), and within a few days of publishing volume two I began working on volume three. The way 'The Resurrection Testament' is arranged changes again in 2015, which is explained later on in this story.
In March of 2011, another tipping point manifested, and this one took place in a backyard shed at a girlfriend’s (whom I later married in 2014). I was about done with the 3rd volume, and around the 20th of March I was drawn into a deep yogic meditation. It started with me being sick (on the 19th) from not eating for the previous two days (my eating habit is random during this time – and this is because there is a Giant radiating Force in my belly that makes me Feel Full All the time). The sickness was so bad that it effected how the body was able to proceed, and so, I took in some food, just enough to continue my meditation without the effects from the lack of food. On the 20th in the window of time from 4 pm until after dark all sorts of yogis, some from Earth (including the Full lineage of the Siddhas and the Kriya yoga tradition, Ramana and Maharishi – whom have all taken a Seat in my right-heart) and others that are not, came and showed me their yogas, and manifested their highest yogas within Jared and through my bodily form (through the Spiritual Cross). Each one merged their forms into this form.
Adi Da Samraj came to me in all sorts of ways, and I processed (the most strange of all the new yoga being demonstrated) these yogas through Him As me. He appeared to be testing Jared (me). He appeared in the Most absurd of appearances, and nothing shook this bodily Consciousness from Seeing As the Transcendent One, and not as a point of view. All these tests came and he ultimately, like all the Gurus/Yogis that were appearing and Processing their unique yogas through me (that day), Processed All his bodily Communing forms through me that day. That day ended, and the next day I came out of that meditation with the intention that is was time to push my Testament into the public, and begin to Teach in whatever way God Sees fit.
After this, I still did not have any motive to go out and gather devotees around me, and to build such a community as Adi Da Samraj. I finished volume three, which completed the revelation of the Enbrightenment tradition through my Testament. After volume three (The Ocean) was completed the last and final volume of my Testament was written (Fires of Transfiguration), which is the final book in the New Christian tradition I created call Christ Enbrightenment. I wrote that book in less than two months. All my editing was done by myself (but my then girlfriend did help occasionally). I wrote that book in May and June of 2011, and was finished and into editing mode before the end of June.
All four volumes make up a single Testament, and both the - Enbrightenment tradition - and the - Christ Enbrightenment - tradition are born from the Same Revelation and Same Testament. Enbrightenment has turned out to be my (umbrella like) integral tradition, while Christ Enbrightenment is my (focused) offering of Christ’s Fullness of Ministry through me. Both spiritual traditions are one and the Same, but Christ Enbrightenment had to be created to bring about the Fulfillment of the Ministry of the right-heart and the Resurrection of Christ in all possible Christian traditions. It was Necessary to Clarify the references (verses) to Christ after the Resurrection ‘Sitting on the right hand of the Father, and coming in the clouds’. That is the Sign of my Ministry to the Christians (it is an Ecumenical Sign manifested through the Spiritual Cross), and that is to Reveal the Fullness of Salvation and Resurrection through Christ Enbrightenment, and through the Revelation of the Spiritual Cross. This revelation was fully established with the last volume of my Testament (Fires of Transfiguration).
The last and most profound tipping point happened in the bedroom of the same house as the March 20th event. During this yoga, my old physical self came to me, and the appearance of my old physical body/mind began to appear to me before the day of this tipping point. It (my bodily Shining Steady-State of old age) merged with this current bodily form and processed the great yoga beyond the beyond, which is the yoga of the Divine Self Reality of Everlasting Light (or as Adi Da has termed it the yoga of the Divine Self Domain). After this Process finished Avatar Adi Da came to me and All the Tests He had for me Finished. The Guru Function in me was Cleared of his Tests. Adi Da Samraj has nothing left to show me, and I have Everything to show you, and/or Anyone Ready to step into the Divine Fires of Eternal Transfiguration and Self Realization. He (Adi Da Samraj) Freely stays ‘with’ Me (Shining from the Divine Transcendent Realm – beyond the right-heart) As That Divine Presence ItSelf, and He Freely Demonstrates the Divine Self Domain As me, through Me.
In 2015, around August, I decided to revisit all my writings and fine tune what has been said. I have spent many years on different forums, some religious and spiritual, some scientific and philosophical, and through the process of engaging minds of all kinds my skill in writing has matured. Since 2003, when I started writing about Self Realization, my writing was overwhelmed by the newly Realized ecstatic life of God Realization. So, the wording was full of that, the idea of creating completely new teachings was at the core of how certain things were written. In the beginning, and even now, my Testament is written about through a new Nondual Ministry for Jesus Christ called Christ Enbrightenment, and the other is as an independent, not associated with any particular Nondual tradition and able to stand alone. These books appeared as four books, the first volume was called Enbrightenment of Christ, the second was Tower of babblon, the third volume was titled The Ocean, and the fourth is called Fires of Transfiguration. The first volume and the fourth volume are written for Christ Enbrightenment, and the second and third volume were written for Enbrightenment itself. Two other books, not associated with The Resurrection Testament, have been written as spiritual commentaries, and these books were born from a blog that has been growing for a few years.
I deleted the blog in November of 2015 once my revisiting process was complete with the two books that were published outside of my Testament books, and I was now ready to edit and change all four volumes of The Resurrection Testament. Once I started reading and going through the chapters much of what was written felt like a distraction in relationship to the core message. The teaching tool of 'Babblon and babblon' along with the idea of the 'tower of babblon' felt like I could just get rid of those ideas and not lose any depth to the Testament. They are a bit complex to talk about, and might leave a person more confused than before. So, those ideas were completely removed, and nothing of babblon or Babblon or tower of babblon remain anywhere in my Testament or in the tradition of Enbrightenment itself. My intention is to simplify The Resurrection Testament and save all the random commentaries for other books, and to show the core message like a single flower on a white wall. Any kind of distracting writing has all been removed from my Testament books, which will appear as one book for Enbrightenment itself and one book for Christ Enbrightenment. All four volumes are combined into two books that form the texts for my Testament.
The books of the 'Tower of babblon' and 'The Ocean' are now one book titled Heart Realization. The books 'Enbrightenment of Christ' and 'Fires of Transfiguration' are a single book titled Christ Enbrightenment. Along with these big changes to The Resurrection Testament, my spiritual name has changed to Mukti Da. Prior to this change, there were a few names that were associated with my role as Guru. Those names, were Babblon, Da Fire, Siddha Buddha, Akasha Buddha, and the first was Da Christ Jared, which are all now no longer used. My birth name Jared is also a sacred Hebrew name, and it means 'descent' or 'he who descended'. However, a single name, Mukti Da, serves as my primary spiritual name. In the first versions of The Resurrection Testament those names were used, now the only name used, other than Jared, is Mukti Da.
My current sub-stage is in the final stages of translation related to stage three of Enbrightenment. That IS me Now, True Seeing (which is explained in stage three commentary) all As Existence ItSelf or God ItSelf. Realization has always been simple to me. When people talk about this and that, I easily experience it. I see your hearts, and they are Clear to me. You can’t hide a Realizer from a Realizer in the Same room, the Same planet, or even the Same Cosmos. The Heart~Fire has been my Teacher, my Guru, my Living day to day experience all my life, and the Heart~Fire is the One Tangible Teaching of God that you can Always Depend on to Be Real, to Support Faith, and It Is a Divine Gift of God’s Realization for each individual.
The story of my Awakening is Real, All True, a Testament, and A Confession. Take my word As my Real living, moment to moment, Conscious experience of Reality, God, Truth, that which Is Divine, that which Is Love-bliss, and that which Is Perfect Everlasting Identity. I am sharing this with you because my Heart sees it more important for you to hear this Testament than to worry about you not liking me, calling me something evil, a liar, a deceiver, or some kind of false anything. Think what you want about this Confession, just remember the Divine Reality of Existence Is My Self, It IS Me, and after all the thinking, consideration, and debate about my Testament, I Will Still Be Me, Forever. That Is the Same you that You Are. We Are one in God Already, but there Is a process for each individual to Perfectly and bodily Realize God’s Realization. I have been through It (I Give Perfect Witness and Testify of that Process), and through that Divine Process, my Recognition of Adi Da Samraj’s Testament, and the Recognition of Jesus Christ’s Testament, and the Ministry that Jesus Christ is Manifesting through me (Christ Enbrightenment) Are my Teachings today (Enbrightenment), right now, and forever.